This way plssss....

Vampires or Humans ??

2012-01-26T21:43:00.001+04:00

After reading and rereading...

(yeah..sometimes even re-rereading...hehe)

The Twilight series, I was under the impression that vampires,

that is good vampires can be better than humans...

(not that vampires exist...I live in my own dreamland...

where there is only a thin veil between fantasy and reality...

so, obviously I waste time thinking about vampire love and life)...

Even the House of Night series...

Why is that the prospect of goodness in evil so intriguing??

Is it because, we, good humans, have something to do with evil?...hehe..

No twisted questions...I'll delve into the matter...

I think it has something to do with my life at least...

I've seen transformation of an almost darkened mind to the most shiny and illuminated one...

I've helped in the process...

At least, I shared my thoughts and heart, covered in a gift wrapper of love and care...

Which brought the Light out...

I am sure of one thing there...

Instead of changing a monstrous vampire back to a thinking human...I led a weak hearted human into becoming a dazzling, soulful and humane vampire...

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The Night Sky

2012-01-13T09:36:00.001+04:00

Purple and black swirls in,

Shifting the orange and blue of daylight...

Worshipers of The Milky Way,

Whirl around, gleaming like diamonds...

The moon, dressed in pearly white,

Dance to a mystic, ancient score of night...

A wolf's howl echoes on a faraway rock...

Stirring those who reflect on their thoughts...

Fireflies light tiny lamps,

For those who seek knowledge in dark...

'Cause Nyx is blessed with insight of God...

The Night Sky inspires and enchants,

With gravity of a million suns...

Merci! O! Impeccable Power!

That holds the night sky high with all its wonder...

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A Toothy Plight

2012-01-13T00:14:00.002+04:00

I'm a student,

An aspiring dentist...

But my back is now bent,

Crushing weight of 'to-do' list...

Department of Prosthodontics...

I slog sleepily in a corner..

Whirlpool of dentures, crowns and pontics...

God! Help me out of this burner..

'Boy! It's half past one! '

My tummy feebly cries..

I console, 'We can leave when we're done,

Have a little rice...'

But my occlusal rim,

Giggles heartlessly...

Hopes are again dim...

No approval so easily...

I think of nasty tricks,

Failure! Forsee danger ahead..

'Cause none can outsmart pricks,

They won't nod their head..

I silently realize, in resentment...

Lay before me,

Yet another day of torment...

Huh! Let it be ! ! !

She's your daughter...

2012-01-12T23:57:00.003+04:00

She's your daughter,

You wonder, where is her laughter...

You claim to give her happiness,

By making her life a mess?

She's a kitten in chains,

Listen! Her fluttering heart pains..

She's a bird in glowing rage,

She never craved a golden cage..

Hear her longing cries,

Severe all her ties...

Love is her need,

Won't you pay heed?

She's your daughter...

Leave her...

To fly yonder...

And shine brighter..

When Lonliness Strikes @ Hostel!

2011-11-07T10:44:00.000+04:00

I have always been encountering the depressing loneliness when I use to be in hostel, and my cheerful roommate goes home for weekends...
I manage quite well, the first few hours...Sun is my pal.. ;)
But as daylight dims..And my friend retreats into the glistening red sea...
My heart starts sinking...
I hate darkness spreading...Blackness lurking behind the dull violet and deep blue in the sky...
I could feel the city buzz...Street lamps flickering on to life...Vehicles racing...
But I feel insecure....

When I have something to study, and I start doing it arduously, time flies...
Otherwise, when I read novels to kill time, time is reluctant to tick away...I keep reading and re-reading the "Twilight" novels over and over...I think I finished two rounds of "Eclipse" and "P.S I love You"...Hehe...

Another annoying thing is the never-ending-once-it-starts kind of rains in Mangalore...
I love rain...But when I'm lonely and if it's thundering...The case is different... :(
I almost end up believing that my heart does have some kind of connection with the weather in the city...
Each time a lightening strikes...Pangs of fear catch up with me...And I stay still expecting the mighty drums of thunder to descend...

And 'Electricity' starts playing 'Hide and Seek' with me...
I hate it when the only familiar sound of the fan fades away...Replaced by eerie rustling of the nearby coconut tree...Singing cricket, never tired of his sad monotonous notes...

I wish dearly..."If I could hug someone and go to sleep right away!"...
Ah!..Mr.Yellow Pumpkins...My Teddy Bear stares at me with his glass eyes....
Okay..For time being, The warmth in his eyes is comforting enough...
But still...I wish....

He’s away...

2011-08-28T14:02:00.002+04:00

I miss my loved ones…

I have missed them before…They have been away from me…

I use to find solace in God…

His nature…His inimitable creations…

I used to forget the “cloud” and see only the “silver lining”…

But now, I miss someone so bad that I began noticing the dark, dense cloud…which again makes me appreciate the silver lining of hope even more…

Thanks a bunch…The Most Merciful…

This is one of my heartfelt poems…

Something direct from my heart…

Flawless crimson blooms…
Dance around in glee…

But, I dread the lurking thorns…

Making merry with the wind…

Leaves radiate gold rays…

But, I see the shadows cast…

Shimmering in moonlight…

The Black lake twitters…

But, I feel the smirking depths…

A linnet tunes his happy notes…

But, I listen painfully,

The rhythm of my stinging heart…

Faraway stars wink at me…

But, happiness lights the skies yonder…

I’m amidst a Rose Garden…

A teardrop woke a sleeping stone…

“Why?” the gray rock mused…

“He’s Away…”

My tears gleamed…

Value...

2011-08-25T13:59:00.002+04:00

If you never had something..

And if you will never have it,
Then, you'll never value it...

If you have it once...
And then lose it,
You value it...

But when you get it back..
You forget how you valued it!...

You know a thing's value...
Only when you'll have it,
And then lose it....
But Forever....

~Shaziya Abdul Jabbar

I'm Talking To My Sis....

2011-04-01T19:39:00.001+04:00

After about 1 month...Of hectic, tight, frustrating, monotonic schedule....I came to my home in Kerala...Shaz popped up online and I went into heights of happiness...
She talked to me for long...Very long, in fact..Reminding me of our silly chats at night...
She has a money plant in her bedroom now...Ahem..'our' bedroom, actually...hehe...
And one in the kitchen...For my Mom to tale care of..

Then she chatted expressively about a book she read..."Everybody is a suspect in Georgia" is a title that still lingers in mind....

She had things to narrate about a movie she saw..."Tangled" was the name...About a girl with long hair...Even she has long hair...MashaAllah...
;P

On and on, on and on..we nattered about silly no-one-else-care-about-it things..

It seems that my absence has made a profound effect on Mom...She use to talk highly about me...
"Raihana used to do that...do this...If she would have been here..."...
Haha..At last...My dream comes true..

Even Dad praises me now and then when he gets stuck up with some techie-stuff....
I'm the one who always figures it out for him....

And other topics that vaguely interfered are "World Cup Cricket...(Hey!..India is gonna bag it this time!..Jai Ho!)
Studies...(By the way..My dear sister is gonna be a 10th grader....Clap your Hands!..Even Hash...Cheers to both of you..And wish u all the best!)....

And what else...
Ahem..ahem..As usual...Fought a little bit...Hurling nasty names at each other....
I miss you dear Shaz..Miss you like hell....

Here I am..Sitting in the colorless hostel room.Boring afternoon..Thought might as well post something..Borrowed phone with net connection.But alas.. :( Can't even type a proper post..I miss my home..I miss my roomie..She's gone home.I'm lonely..So I'm doing this madness..okay..chill..I know..Its kinda boring..I'll stop..All take care..

2011-03-06T17:29:00.000+04:00

Nostalgia : Good Times....

2011-02-03T17:15:00.000+04:00

Leaving tomorrow...Once more to endure the pain of separation from my family...
I'll miss them again...With all the intensity...
I'll feel awkward for the next few weeks in hostel...For sure..

My only solace would be Yogitha..My cheerful roommate...Hehe..
Friends in college , of course...and dear Ramz's calls..I know he'd make sure that I remain happy...
Because he cares for me a lot...
Anas would also be there...Sending in jokes...Never forgets to bring a smile on my face..Thanks..
:)
Anyway..I could enjoy the winter here...I thought I'd miss it...But I enjoyed it very well...
(In all the senses...I've been out with flu for almost a week...Hehe..)

Been to Dubai Mall...Took in the splendor of The Giant Aquarium..Guinness World Record Holder..
Oh My Gosh!...A must see...All kinds of marine creatures...A Perfect Underwater Zoo.....
The Water Dance was just amazing...World's largest..
And enjoyed the grandeur of the renowned "Burj Khalifa"...
Clicked photos like mad...Never did this way before in my entire life...Hehe...

I've stayed here for 17 years...
When I had been living here..In this Arabian desert...I'd taken it for granted...
I didn't recognize the comfort it provided me with...
Life in India is kind of insecure...You don't feel well protected..Don't know when there'd be a change in the situations..
:/

That is when you unknowingly start valuing this country's systems...
The discipline of a nation plays important role in it's growth..And that is what is lacking in India..
Aah..Leave it...I should not be talking this now...

I will miss u Dad...Mom...And dear Shaz...
Our small fights and disagreements...Funniest moments..Awkward instants...Foolishness...Emotional bits...Hehe...
I'll miss the family reunion...Shubbi, Hash, Jazz, Noor, Safa, Sahal, Aysha..All of you...
All uncles and aunts...Do pray for me...Love you all....
See...Again...
I'll miss everything...

Yeah..Lastly...My blog will have to wait for another post to perk up...
But I've hired Shaz as my co-author...She could write anytime...Hope she would...
K..I'm gonna stop boring you now...Come on...Get yourself out....Hehe...
Until next time...
RAIN

Autobiography of a Coin

2011-01-31T21:10:00.005+04:00

I am a piece of hard material...You'd have probably tossed me on a confusing day of your rackety life..Didn't you?..

I had had an interesting life...Of course...Otherwise I wouldn't have attempted an autobiography..

I'd been a shiny, round 'piece of art'..I could say...when I was minted...Silvery Cupro-Nickel glinted against the light...
I'd been with many fellows...Just like me...Identical...
Meant to help intelligent Humans to go through their petty 'everyday' monetary transactions...

I was thrust into the outer world from the safe bank counter, one day...When an elderly lady had come to fetch some change...
There..I went into her purple coloured purse...Smelt good..Like Mountain Daffodils...(Later came to know that it was 'Eu De Cologne')...

The lady was perhaps very rich..For many months I'd been circulated in fancy shoppes...And posh restaurants...Yeah..It was a happy life...

Suddenly everything changed when a gentleman offered me to a wicked looking kid to bring him the newspaper of the day...
The lad spent me on a chocolate brownie...From a street vendor...His smelly desk irritated me so much...

After that day..It had been chaos...Hawkers, reeking fishmongers, begging peddlers, tramps, greasy mechanics...what not?...
I was aware of how my shiny, flawless appearance was wearing off...

How I transformed from a fragrant proud self to a stinking grimy wimp...

Once I was even destined to remain lost...In a drainage sewer...A tramp with holes in pocket dropped me........

Thank Heavens!...My remaining radiance caught the eye of a bright kid..
She took me in her hands after lots of effort....Polished me..Took me home...
There!..Into her Piggy Bank....She was part of a well settled middle class family...

I've been in her bank for quite a long time that I almost was attached to this pretty girl who often spoke to every non-living thing around her...I'd made friends too in her coin collection...

Everyone in there had a different story to share...Distinct, touching, funny, discrete...and at times happy tales...

One day she decided to get herself a new camera...She eyed us skeptically and then at last decided to break open her precious savings....
I was returned to the bank with all my newly made friends, in exchange of a currency note...

Again..I'm waiting in the bank counter...For yet another life..waiting for me....Adventure is out there!

After BDS?

2011-01-31T15:03:00.000+04:00

What after BDS?

Not quite a time to think about it..hehe...Because I'm still a Fresher.

Dentistry is a very cool profession...I have heard people talk with some prejudice upon the Bachelor of Dental Surgery degree...

People in India tend to see MBBS degree as the best thing a science student could achieve...

I have never thought of it that way...

Even our curriculum is far more interesting than any other professional course...

Which course would bring forth your artistic skills so much?...

We have to carve the shape of each tooth in wax...

We draw their outline to develop a perfect aesthetic sense...

And still we have the joy of learning Anatomy, Physiology, and Biochemistry which are main Medical subjects...With practicals...

Even though we don't go into whole human body, we learn profoundly and passionately, about the things we have to learn...

Especially the head and neck..

And this is just about the very first year...there are lots to pop up on the way... ;)

Oh!...Am I boring everyone with crazy thoughts?...

Sorry..Just musing around..

Back to my question...

I am very much intrigued by the wide scale exuberance of people towards Cosmetic Dentistry nowadays...

Tooth whitening, Facial Rejuvenation, Tooth Contouring..Etc Etc....

So much interesting things...Would like to intensely look at it...

Seeing myself as a smiling dentist a few years later...I dream on...and on....and on....

Hehe... :)

Has Something Gone Wrong?

2011-01-29T22:39:00.001+04:00

I'm not unhappy...I keep telling myself...

I've got everything..

Everything...Everything a person can possibly dream of having...

But why do I have this feeling of emptiness right now?...

I'm sure I haven't done anything wrong...

But I just want to cry out loud...To the world...

That "I Am Right!"...

Eventually everyone would see the truth...

Thankfully,I realized one thing tonight....

So..The day has taught me something...

Selfishness would be paid off by more Selfishness...

And there's nothing you can do about it....

At the same time, Love would be rewarded with more Love...

Live...Let Live...

Be Healthy :)

2011-01-25T17:56:00.000+04:00

Oh! No!
Grapes, Apples...
Orange too...
Mom's romping around...

Head for the Hills!
Dad's tallying me..
Carrots, Lettuce...
And Cucumber...

Why?
"Be Healthy!"

Chew...Chew...Chew....
No Other Way!

I Know...I Love Him...

2011-01-23T16:38:00.003+04:00

I close my eyes...

Not to see shadows..

But the glow of my life...

His liquid brown eyes...

Deep within, Flawless love...

Pouring out...

I listen..

His soft, husky voice...

Right beside my ears...

So close...

As waves are to shore...

His breath, sweet as ever....

Warms me complete...

His smile...Strikes me...

Like sparkles of sunshine...

His gentle hands...

A cool breeze across my face...

His delicate fingers...

Caress my hair....

When he holds me near...

I feel his heart...

His love...My jewel...

I 'd never lose it anywhere...

For I can't see me...

Without him...

Incomplete...

There!...He's my Adonis...

I know...I Love Him...

Myself...

2011-01-18T12:31:00.002+04:00

I looked into the mirror to find myself...
Reflection approved...
But something's missing...
I don't know what...

I looked into the water of the murky lake,
The ripples distorted my face....
Not pleasing....Why? ...
I never found what I sought...

Then I turned to a friend...
She let me know...
That I was apt, but had some faults...
'What? '...She remained silent...

And then I gazed upto the starlit sky...
And called to the "God" with all my heart...
Yes...I knew...What my faults were...
I discovered...Myself....

On The Rainbow...

2011-01-17T12:45:00.002+04:00

This is sort of a Vote of Thanks...
;)
My Heart is leaping with joy...
The past few months of my life has been as eventful as ever...
I could say 2010 left me with a lot of happiness...
Because I was able to find answers for the two most important questions of my life...
There had been a lot of confusion before I unveiled the answers...
But "Every Cloud Has A Silver Lining"...Isn't that so?...
Now, I just have humble prayers to The Almighty to keep me in the right path..
And never cause me any regret regarding my decisions...
There are many people around me...Who intensely care for me and love me...
I wish I could give them all back their love and care ...Doubled...

I'm pleased with my Academics...With current state of all affairs in life.....
So...

Figuratively I'm on the Rainbow...Hehe...

I'm lucky to have parents, who treasure me so much...
And the whole of my family..Who've always willed me good with their blessings..
Friends!...Of Course...
And all my dear cousins...Who've always been more than siblings/friends for me...
Love u all...
I'm indebted to God again for bestowing this spell of ecstasy when I least expected it...And most craved it...
Hope I could lay back and enjoy my Rainbow for a while...
:)

My Sister's Poem...

2011-01-16T22:02:00.001+04:00

Today my sister showed me her poem....
I was very happy to learn that she'd also taken poetry seriously...
And is trying to learn how to pen down her thoughts in beautiful language...
Here is her poem...

Son, For You...

You've Never had,
A Journey as long as mine...
You've Never seen,
As much as I have...
You've Never known,
Better than me...
Still You Never realized,
Whatever I said was right...
Until You reached,
Where I had, years back....
And Now I Know,
You are Sorry for that...
But don't be sad...
I Forgive You for what You did..
As the Mistakes done,
Are Outlived Once...
You correct it,
With Tears and Regret...
And If I couldn't,
Then what does it mean?...
To be a Father...
My Dear Son?...

Shaziya Abdul Jabbar

Am I Loved?

2011-01-16T15:45:00.002+04:00

A Pleasant Sunday Morning...
The Zealous Blue Eyes...
With Light at the end of the Tunnel...
Looked unto his Mother..

Trying to decipher, In vain...
Her busy, serious face...
Gold ringed fingers...
Tap Danced, On the Steering Wheel...

The Boy wanted to ask...
"Where to?...Not Back There...
It's Sunday!"
(Her Preoccupied Expression
Advised - Better Not...)

The Glimpse of Hope...
All burnt to a Cinder...
When she drove her Chevrolet..
To the Glaring Edifice...

"4KIDS DAYCARE"

She Slicked up his Slacks...
Neatened his Shirts...
Pecked on his cheek...
"Love you, Honey..."

Hollow Words....
(A Rueful Thought)
And Walked Away...
Forbearing...
Tearful Eyes in deep thought...
"Am I Loved?"....

My College Life...

2010-11-04T18:49:00.001+04:00

After a long long time..I'm back!....
Lots of things to narrate...Hostel life....Wonderful in some aspects.. Hell otherwise...
The foremost problem of mine is the "AJ Hill"....
We have to run up and down the hill for every class...Dental college is down...and Medical colg. is up the hill...
Hostel is also up...So won't be in a mood to go for outings after the tiring day...
Classes are superb...
Ragging was minimal for us..Thank God!...But my fellow boy classmates were complaining about some "Nakhraas"...

Being freshers is one of the worst things faced by the new comers..All stare at u...while u r not supposed to stare at anyone..I'm quite used to this setup so that I won't even recognize my classmates passing by...hehe...
But that's part of life...And I'm ready to accept that...

But then seniors have been great....They are helpful...and guides us...
Being a hostel rep was another unexpected thing that happened to me...

Our dear Bharath Sir chose me randomly from among 100 students...Don't have a slightest idea as to what in my face gave him this whim...!..

Our batch name was out on fresher's day...
AGNI 2010...
"We burn to light otherz"...

Yogitha, my roommate had this name popping up at the right time...Thanks to her...After all..She's my roommate...Must be brilliant..No other way!..haha...

Speaking about her....She's one of the finest people in our class..We adjust like lock and key...Some chemistry works b/w us..and thank God I got her...She's such a sweet person with lots of positive energy flowing out of her....
Never lets my mood go down...

Then there is the MESS!!!!...
It's better described in few words...
Water...Salt...Chappathi...Huge Payment...Hehe....

Next thing to be mentioned is my accent...It's chenged from Mallu to Bombay accent...

Got to go now..See u later..Lots to say...

Life : Kaleidoscope? :(

2010-08-16T13:29:00.002+04:00

Back to Kerala in hours....
A Kaleidoscope of events would begin...

Don't know when I'll get back to blogging....
Would be in hostel...Stepping into my first days in college....

Would have lots to tell everyone...
On the other hand, I'd be missing my parents very much...

When would I ever hold their hands again?..
Maybe in a year..But for me, it's way too long time...
I love you, Dad...
And I love you, Mom...

My sister would be the next person who'd feel my absence so much...
There isn't a single day past, without our silly fights..
But it's sweet when we make up...

I'd miss all that...

I'm leaving AUH, my hometown for the past 17 years...
Snatching nostalgic memories with me...
Reluctant to leave behind things I love....

My Bunk Bed, The Cosy Sofa...Every little thing...
I realize, Trifles makes our life beautiful...

Please, Pray for me...

I'm Sorry

2010-08-14T19:49:00.003+04:00

I fought with you...Very badly...
I told you not to talk to me...
I don't know if you'll forgive me...
But it's better than quarreling every other day...
I know it's all my fault...
But you always isolate me...
And at one point, it was intolerable...
Walking away would be the next best course...
So I'm sorry...
I Love you...

Study uncovers every possible Rubik's Cube solution

2010-08-14T15:36:00.002+04:00

I stumbled across this interesting piece of news in Yahoo!...

Thought I should blog about this...

Rubik's Puzzle got on my nerves when I was a kid...I remember how I spent hours trying to solve it at my cousin's home...(Without playing with him)...He was a bit angry...hehe....

Here are some extracts from the fascinating find...

WASHINGTON (AFP) – An international team of researchers using computer time lent to them by Google has found every way the popular Rubik's Cube puzzle can be solved, and showed it can always be solved in 20 moves or less.

[Wow!]

The study is just the latest attempt by Rubik's enthusiasts to figure out the secrets of the cube, which has proven to be altogether far more complicated that its jaunty colors might suggest.

At the crux of the quest has been a bid to determine the lowest number of moves required to get the cube from any given muddled configuration to the color-aligned solution.

"Every solver of the Cube uses an algorithm, which is a sequence of steps for solving the Cube,"

Said the team of mathematicians, who include Morley Davidson of Ohio's Kent State University, Google engineer John Dethridge, German math teacher Herbert Kociemba and Tomas Rokicki, a California programmer.

"There are many different algorithms, varying in complexity and number of moves required, but those that can be memorized by a mortal typically require more than forty moves."

[ No wonder I couldn't solve it... :) ]

One may suppose God would use a much more efficient algorithm, one that always uses the shortest sequence of moves; this is known as God's Algorithm.

The number of moves this algorithm would take in the worst case is called God's Number. At long last, God's Number has been shown to be 20."

The research, published online, ends a 30-year search for the most efficient way to correctly align the 26 colored cubes that make up Erno Rubik's 1974 invention.

Using computers lent to them by Google -- the company won't disclose how many or how powerful they are -- the team crunched through billions of Cube positions, solving each one over a period of "just a few weeks."

Rubik's enthusiasm extends not only to God's number, but the speed with which the tricky puzzle can be solved.

The current world record holder is Dutch Erik Akkersdijk who successfully solved the puzzle in just 7.08 seconds.

Great...Isn't it?...

The Blessed Month..

2010-08-13T17:40:00.001+04:00

Ramadan is here, at last...
The Holy Qura'n has been revealed to our Prophet (SAW) in the noble month of Ramadan...

There's been a lot of articles about Ramadan in my inbox...About it's holiness, it's generosity, it's immense bounty...

But I don't know how much of them we actually make practical during this month...It's a grave problem...
Time to rethink...
I think we could make changes...Planting kindness in behavior...And goodness in thoughts...Harmonizing one's life with Islam's ideals...

Well I have made some strong resolves to fulfill...And hope it works out....

May Allah bless us all!..Ameen!...
Wishing everyone a spiritual enhancement...

Ramadan Kareem!

A Belated Gift...

2010-08-07T16:19:00.003+04:00

I never realized love could have so much power...
So much power as to make real difference in the choices of your life...
That's the power in my mother's love...

I never knew her...
She was all vague...
Her eyes were distant...
But deep down, I loved her so much...
I had deliberately delayed my gift...
I thought I could never find her fount of love,
Which she had hidden away...
In one of the beautiful, colorful, shells...
Deep in her ocean of care...
But today, I could see the shimmering pearl...
I found the key...
She had it sparkling, always in her eyes...
Only the haughty rebel in me couldn't see it before...
I love my Mom...
Love her more than ever...
She'd always worried for me....
Held me invisibly, when I'd been in distress...
She'd always stood behind the clouds,
Round the clock, Peeping just to see I don't fall...
Praying with concern, for my wellness...
Now I'm going away...
Far Far Away...
And I feel the pangs I'd have to suffer...
Without her gentle hands caressing my hair...
Out of my face...Drifting me to a sound slumber...
But I know the chains are stronger now...
We're bonded for life...

I love You, Mom...

Digital Fortress

2010-08-03T23:57:00.002+04:00

Having got the work of the author of the acclaimed "Da Vinci Code", I thought the read would be exhilaratingly mystified experience with lots of unimaginable and unpredictable twists...
But I was slightly disappointed, I have to admit...
For I was able to guess most of it even before the author narrated it....

Because the climax, which was actually the final code-breaking, the core of the story, was definitely a child's play for those who are a bit knowledgeable in Chemistry...
Being a twelfth grader, I could figure out things even before the characters in the book did...

Dan Brown surely didn't think about sharp minded young readers...
They wouldn't forget Atomic Numbers, Sum and Difference or Prime and Composite numbers!!...
But of course, there were excellent moments in the book too...Shouldn't deny the ingenious cryptographic plot!...
On the whole it was like rereading something after a long time...

"My Experiments With Truth!"

2010-08-03T15:50:00.004+04:00

This incident happened during my return journey from my college (In Manglore) by train...

My uncle was with me...We'd taken our seats opposite a middle-aged man who didn't look friendly at all..

During the time my uncle had gone looking for a bottle of drinking water, the empty seat beside me was occupied by a young man who'd glanced furtively to my side...

I waited for my uncle to shift the uneasiness I felt at this man taking the particular seat...At last he came back and the surprised young man (Let's call him "Pop") jumped out of the seat and sat opposite me with the middle-aged man (Maybe we must call him Uncle G)...

The only other occupants close to us were another youth ( He was engrossed in reading his book to notice anything around..) and a haughty North Indian...

The train was moving with all of the occupants in silence...After a while, the ticket squad was on site to check everything was alright...

But to everyone's surprise, the North Indian didn't have a ticket...The Police asked him to pay the fine or get out of the train...Both of which he refused to do...Talk ensued...Arguments!...At last he was forcefully thrown out...

But this got us talking...Uncle G was irritated and cursed the law-breakers...He was optimistic, though, about the larger percent of "good" people in India....He was posing questions to his listeners (Me, My Uncle, Pop) as to why a 2% of terrorists could do their job easily amongst the 98% "good" people!...

After an illuminating talk on the topic, I adored Uncle G for his insight...

Meanwhile Pop was doing his best to get my attention to him...He was poking information out from my uncle as to our whereabouts...I was not impressed at all!...

This was where "My Experiments With Truth" came in..I wanted to make Pop see that I wasn't interested in what he said...So I pulled out my copy of Gandhi's Autobiography and read...Pop, defeated, started listening to his MP3...

But this set off another string of arguments!!...

My god! And this was about "Me" now...Uncle G burst out when he saw me read it...
He started congratulating me for my passion to read great people..He looked with disgust at Pop and told others...

"Look at him!..You can see all young people with MP3's, Mobiles and Pocket PC's...Why don't try be like this girl here!"...

Need I say more!..Hahaha..I was on top of the world...Pop left the place after hovering around for some time...I loved Uncle G even more for that.....

He'd started edifying me on books of other great people like Abraham Lincoln, Nelson Mandela etc etc...

It was only when I bid him a warm farewell that I came to know that he was a degree holder in literature!...

My childhood's home I see again,
And sadden with the view;
And still, as memory crowds my brain,
There's pleasure in it too.

-Abraham Lincoln

Uncle G had sung for me!

Eye

2010-07-29T13:25:00.002+04:00

Eyes are beautiful...They have life...Reflect people...And always tells the truth...
I learnt pencil sketch for a short time...(It was an online course...You know how it works..hehe..)..
And this one was done during the course of my study...

The Window

2010-07-28T21:20:00.007+04:00

Sunshine pierces through...

Lighting up my room to it's fill...

There isn't a slightest clue,

What awaits me, a morning at the sill...

I could watch the bell flowers grow...

Around the Giant Mango tree...

How awesome! I simply trow...

Swarming bees, hum in glee...

Snow melts at my window ledge...

Rain pelts at my window panes...

Squirrels scurry over the hedge..

I could gape at endless lanes...

A black cat, hairy scary things...
Stirring up my childish fears...
A puny grey fantail sings...
Wiping off my unsought tears...

So much Could The Eyes show me...

But nothing shows if The Window's gone...

Tom And Jerry

2010-07-26T13:54:00.003+04:00

I have always been enamored by the evergreen Tom & Jerry series...

While the whole world loves Jerry for the smartness...I adore Tom for the poor fish he is...

He possess the streak of intelligence, but just doesn't have enough practical knowledge so as to work his thoughts out...Maybe I identify with him...

In spite of the constant rivalry between the cat and the mouse, the cartoon illuminates the underlying bond which keeps both of them together...

Tolerance is the spirit out of which it' born...

Fight Often...Love More Often...

The Getaway! (Part II)

2010-07-25T17:35:00.003+04:00

The second day of our stay there was the most memorable one...
I learnt that women who were married only would wear jasmine flowers on their hair...
I learnt that auto drivers out there would load as much as 8 people on a single auto...Me, Uncle, Aunts (2 of them), Cousins (4 of them)..hehe...It was quite fun.....The driver squeezed in by my brothers who flanked him on both sides...
We set off for Kodaikanal all on a sudden whim...And had the most romantic trip of my life...Even though there wasn't anyone special with me...The air is magical out there...It's no wonder that people choose the place for honeymoon destination...

Both my uncles turned young beyond imagination...Joking like restless youngsters...hehe..

Homemade chocolates, Fresh carrots, and Mangoes (salted and peppered) were on our diet the whole day..I barely ate anything else...

I also could enjoy a giant waterfall...And an endless clearing with a forest of pine trees...and only pines... stretching over acres of land...The canopy of needle like leaves covering the blue sky...Allowing thin shreds of light through..Which glitters on the shiny pine cones that had fallen...

I could breathe in the smell of the cool, fresh air...It was unforgettable...

We all geared ourselves up for a boating too...The Lake on the Hill...It was chilly...The mist covered us while we were in the boat...And I was fiddling all the way with my life jacket..Nasty thing to have on..Ugh!...But you'd never forget to acknowledge the stopping of your heart for a second before the nature's astonishing beauty unveiled there...In the middle of The Lake..

The trip strengthened my wish to pursue my dream of living in a hill station by tenfold...Maybe I should marry a Kashmiri...Or why not someone from Kodaikanal??....I wonder...

A Getaway!..(Part I)

2010-07-24T17:39:00.002+04:00

Been for a trip to Madurai..Want to relate a lot of things...

It was a sudden departure... Didn't dream I'd reach there...

I went with Hafsathatha, And her sons....Sahal and Adil...Shukkurka was also there..

So we set off a fine rainy morning....

We were supposed to reach Calicut by train and take a bus from there to Madurai....We took Sleeper Tickets for the whole lot from Kannapuram Station...

The funniest part is that, due to ignorance we jumped into a general compartment...

And need I say the remaining??

There are many stories about how people take normal tickets and travel in a sleeper..But the reverse must be the first time...

We reached Calicut by evening...Performed our prayers in a Masjid...And waited for our bus...

At last the One-Night journey commenced...Sahal sat beside me...And he was jittering away happily...They'd put a movie to watch..An old Tamil movie...(Not very helpful to ward off boredom hehe)...

After somehow finishing the night we looked forward to a fresh morning at Madurai...

And it was good..except for the untidy bus stand...hehe..

And you could imagine how it'd be from the Tamil movies...It's just like it..

Rickshaws, Motorcycles (A sea of them..I must say...), Autos and Multistory Buildings..

"Madurai town is a very crowded place

With no enough space!"

Met Jasthatha and Abdu from there...They live in a colony where you could see "kolam"

drawn in front of each house...

Had a wonderful evening there...With Fathima mol....

After a long while...

2010-07-24T17:28:00.000+04:00

Been very busy for the past few months..Not busy..ahem.. The Right word would be..."helpless"...

I was in India...Went for attending the entrance examinations...Did so...and waited for the results...It's been a crucial time..No jokes whatsoever...

I've joined for BDS at last...At A.J.I.D.S (Short for A.J Institute of Dental Sciences)... Mangalore...

Just not the way I wanted to...But I'm extremely happy...I thank Allah for His immense blessings showered upon me...

There'd been many eventful things happening around me in these three months...Staying in India has it's advantages...You're never bored..

I couldn't even come online with enough peace of mind so as to type a good mail to my friend...There won't be enough time left...I never realised why it is always so...

Then how am I supposed to blog?....Not that there are quite a lot of readers waiting for my posts..

Now...I've come back for a short spell to AUH...So back to blogging....poetry...music...

All these are far fetched ideas out there...In Kerala....

The reason is still a mystery....

PHYSICS OVER!....CHEM OVER!

2010-03-23T11:19:00.000+04:00

Boards are getting over!....Two more to go....Biology and Maths....Hmmm.....AIPMT.....CEE Kerala......OVER!.....

Random Thoughts

2010-03-22T13:25:00.000+04:00

"Obama's blush"...They describe it....The media ppl....

His health plans saw light...The landmark bill was passed after a tight debate....219-212 votes....

I am happy for Obama...Because I like him very much...Regardless to whatever he's done or didn't do....

Some people do have that charisma...personality. etc .etc...which gains them people's support and which helps them win hearts of many....

Obama has charmed me the first time I ever heard abt him..Don't really know why...

Anyway..One thing's sure!.....There's going to be a sweeping change for them...Americans....

Stop wondering abt that....The news is going on....

I turn my attention to the next headline....

There!....The legislation in Kerala...My homeland...

What I see is many indisciplined ppl moving about here and there....raising voices.....(Recently heard that L.Rajagopal..Of Rajyasabha made a suicide attempt...Great!!)...

Why this behavior for us?....Just for us?.....

I am sad about our country's democracy....Is it what the great leaders of the past meant?...

Fighting..Scraping...Brawling....Quarreling??....

The representatives are meant to discuss and do wat is best for our nation.....Arguments are natural..But it must not be like a child's play....Squabbling and behaving in an unruly way...Hmm...

When shall we improve?????

Oh...no time..next headline....

The news goes on and on...

Me watching...Wondering...Blogging...and then smiling at myself....

A Fool's Story

2010-03-05T13:39:00.000+04:00

First of all, I thank Nada and Najih for their part in this composition....This is for both of you....Esp Nada, whom I am going to miss a lot...And probably would never meet again....

Young, Green and Immature...

The graceful showers swept down....

With silent beauty, she drizzled on....

Fiddling with a winged Rain-fly....

He squished and squirmed...

Among the glassy needles....

Holding her close,

He gifted his beating heart....

Learnt and taught, the loving duo...

The folly of life....And only that...

Rays of wisdom shone upon ignorance...

Renting apart splinters of forlorn love...

Sometimes, cruel, the world seems...

The intelligent Rain-fly,

Sang a sad note and went his way....

Whilst the foolish rain,

Zooming down to earth...

Waits for the light of wisdom

With the rainbow of hope...

With always a single prayer...

"Never say goodbye..."

Daggers are here!...

2010-03-05T13:30:00.000+04:00

Boards are here....Chem practicals are over...It was good....Thanks to our teachers....They have been behind us for two whole years....

But I can't say the same for physics....It's all luck....Do pray for me not to get any "Light" Experiments....Hope everything goes well for all...

OOPS!...I couldn't cook up any title....

2010-03-05T13:15:00.000+04:00

I stumbled across this quote in an ad...But I really liked it...My type of qoute.....It's something abt husband and wife...(Actually meant for husbands...ahem..)

Here it is...

"You asked her to make do in a one room apartment...She did...

You got up at 3 to watch the World Cup... She made tea....

You never have to worry...Abt ur health, your mom, ur kids....She did...

You sometimes forgot to say, "I love you"....She never forgot....

Your dreams are not urs alone..."

How is it?...

Midnight Sun

2010-02-04T20:28:00.000+04:00

The Hourglass of my life....

Spent the last grain of sand...

Now, it turns upside down....

Midnight descends around me...

While I grope in direful darkness....

Fighting back the fear sinking in...

Pulling me apart, ripping me...

I behold a streak of illumination....

The Midnight Sun...

Lighting up my world...

Filling zest and vigor in my life..

A friend of mine....Of course, He is...

Sketch Of My Sis...

2010-02-04T20:21:00.000+04:00

I sketched her on a fine lazy winter morning...It turned out to be exactly like her.....when she was 7 or 8 years old...I had a framed photo of hers....And started work in the morning....Finished by noon...I am happy...And she is happy....

Hopes Run Low...

2010-02-03T21:57:00.000+04:00

Before a few days...There has been hope shining through....Like "the midnight sun"...

(Wait for the issue of my latest poem.."Midnight Sun"...Coming soon...hehe)....

But Dark Forces are even more dominant nowadays than the feeble flicker of "hope" light...

Every thing darkens day by day....I had guessed right in the beginning....2010 is not a fascinating year for me....Didn't have any happiness at all...

Except some moments of self-satisfaction....Very few...

Model Exams are at large...There is some progress in case of studies....

Because still...Aims are high....No matter what....Dark or Light....I still aim high.....higher...and even more...

Hopes Versus Aims....

What wud the result of this duel?...Again...As always...I am destined to wait....

Childhood Friend...

2010-01-05T16:26:00.000+04:00

Rummaging our way,

Through the school backyard,

Borrowing chalks, the ball, and

The bun from Mrs.Cook....

(But we ain't asking permission)

I never felt sorry...

Because she was with me..

Jumping over the stone fence

Into Old Mr.Grumpy's orchard...

Stealing oranges and hurling grapes at him...

When he chases us around....the shivering creature...

I never felt any pity...

When she was near me....

Sticking out our tongues at minors...

Grabbing lollipops off their hands...

Handing them a candy,

We smirk round the corner...

(A wrap around a stone...Hehe)

I never felt culpable...

Indeed, she was with me...

Blaming each other when caught...

So elders might confuse...

Hiding their keys,

For a day and a night....

I never felt guilty,

When she was with me....

Frustrating New Year....

2010-01-01T12:46:00.000+04:00

Hmm...2010 started off with a very frustrating morning for me...And the year as a whole seems frustrating..hehe...

I was in a fight with my classmates from yesterday night....It is almost resolved now....But still it is a bad way to start a year....

Especially when it is the last quarter of our studies together...

We are all subject to separation of ways...Don't know how many will catch up and look back at the same tym in b/w the busy life waiting ahead...

But I realise that there are gems of friendship around me...Among many pebbles...Shining through when u need light....

Another interesting development is that I sorted out something which has been tugging at my mind since the start of December...I have been smiling at the challenge indeed...Like the Edward -Jacob thing....Thanks to the one who made it easier for me...

Anyways...Happy New Year to all...

Lets welcome the year warmly...Even if the year doesn't radiate any warmth.....

New Connections

2009-12-30T14:08:00.000+04:00

I have always been looking around for magic.....And I have always found enuf magic to satisfy me....

It is true when old ppl say that we wud eventually get wat we seek...

Nowadays it is my second nature to notice seemingly unnoticeable things and think abt its significance....As far as I am concerned.....And I obtain interesting results...

Try connecting things around u to some event in ur lyf....And then watch wat it turns out to be...The happenings always justifies the events in ur lyf...And sometymes even directs us to the right choice/decision...

Maybe it is because I am so much influenced by the short story "The Alchemist" of Paulo Coelho....

But I always remain keen in finding signs of life in baubles....Because I believe strongly that everything exist for a purpose...

For example...I play with the letters on roadside signboards to read a hidden messsage...which hints me wat to do abt the current problem in my mind...

It is all imagination...I know....but it's very stimulating...and fun...and mystique...

Studying Hard

2009-12-28T20:38:00.001+04:00

There is not much tym left now...Its already the end of 2009.....it is the "two zero ONE zero"....

hmmmm....see how tym flies....

I am not sure abt wat I wud becum in the near future...but I wud'nt have to wait for long...because clocks tick faster nowadays....days fall behind like leaves in autumn...

Amidst this quickly changing scenarios...I have to study hard...hard enough to make myself stable in this naughty dwindling world...

My hopes are running high...Dunno wat is there in store for me...Lets wait and see...a few more yrs....

Expectations have never come true for me....But I never stop expecting...hehe.... :)

X'mas

2009-12-21T19:50:00.000+04:00

Christmas is here....I wud start by wishing everyone a very merry X'mas....

Christmas has been only a vague part of my life before 2 yrs...now December 25th has got it's own significance...Christmas is believd to be bringing joy for everyone.....but for me....it is joy with tears...wrapped in suffocating sadness....Those who can guess...may know the reasons.....

Well....Human memory keeps things evergreen...no doubt....who told we forget?....we never forget...

and I know each time I come across Christmas that nothing is ever gonna change.....

Parasite.....

2009-09-15T13:02:00.000+04:00

This world is full of parasites....Everyone with fake identity....wants to exploit each other somehow....Friendships are made and broken like...just like changing clothes....Nothing to treasure and nothing to cherish...

A time would come when one couldn't understand the meaning of true friendship...When one would think that friends are for a definite purpose....And like a parasite bleeds off the host....Leaving them depleted...devitalized....

I have been seeking truth in this nasty world?....Did I ever expect to find it while it was always been hanging above me?...The truth has been thrust upon me like a hard slap on the face...

I know I am not perfect....In fact noone is....But that doesn't mean we shud get this last drop by squeezing others...I must never trod upon others....

Every one advises.... "This world is meant to be selfish...Go on with the flow...Be a little selfish...Only then You can survive..."

A little selfishness is 'outright selfishness'....How can then I find the truth which only is exuded by a considerably selfless person?....I wonder....Where is this world directed to?....

Patches Of Memory...

2009-09-05T12:14:00.001+04:00

There are some things which we never dare to forget...Some things which remain etched in our memories...My memory fails me beyond the age of two-and-a-half years old....But some images then linger and I wanted to collect them all...

******

But then, I used to watch my dad from the top window....him walking to the masjid nearby....I remember it was during a Ramazan time....As I sat watching him, I noticed a partially emptied glass of juice (Mango...I guess...Otherwise I wudn't go and look into it!)...I remember how I'd wondered about a struggling housefly which fell into the remains of the unfinished juice....It craved for a flight out...Why did it not think before it had flown in?....But it wanted to have one more chance...

I cudn't help becoz as I stood watching it with pity, my mom appeared from behind and took the glasses away....I followed her and saw her pouring the juice into the basin...

(This happened when I was 2 or 3 years old...But I have this in mind....nothing before it nor after this feat)

Rambling Thoughts...

2009-06-16T21:09:00.000+04:00

Unit tests are even more stressful than terminal examinations...We need to look after the daily portions as well as loads of homework....And the summer heat is getting into my head....No mood for studies...But it's the tym for hard work...I guess...The results of KEE and IIT has come out...Came to know about brilliant results of some significant ppl...Jus want to try hard and get myself an MBBS seat...It's the only definite aim in my life rite now...

Taking a philosophical turn, what actually is the purpose of life?...Getting an MBBS degree is not all...Ther must be something more to it....But tym never waits for me to make out what it is....I never had enough tym to wonder and don't expect to have anymore....Such a competitive world!.....

But while thinking about the coming generations...There's some smirking smile over my face!..What are they gonna do????...HAHA...Unlucky guys...like my sis...

The Stone

2009-05-12T15:36:00.000+04:00

A special day passed by....I picked up a gem of poetry today......

I don't really know why this particular poem touched me so deeply.....

Maybe because I'm sensitive to such themes...

It was by chance that it came across...I wouldn't have known about the poem if it weren't for my friend....She handed me the poem and I was completely blown over by some unique and "upto the mark elements" in the poem....I loved it....And I love it even more when I read it over and over again....

The grief, The melancholy...It's just amazing...

Take a read if you want....

The Stone

"And will you cut a stone for him,
To set above his head?
And will you cut a stone for him--
A stone for him?" she said.

Three days before, a splintered rock
Had struck her lover dead--
Had struck him in the quarry dead,
Where, careless of a warning call,
He loitered, while the shot was fired--
A lively stripling, brave and tall,
And sure of all his heart desired . . .
A flash, a shock,
A rumbling fall . . .
And, broken 'neath the broken rock,
A lifeless heap, with face of clay,
And still as any stone he lay,
With eyes that saw the end of all.

I went to break the news to her:
And I could hear my own heart beat
With dread of what my lips might say;
But some poor fool had sped before;
And, flinging wide her father's door,
Had blurted out the news to her,
Had struck her lover dead for her,
Had struck the girl's heart dead in her,
Had struck life, lifeless, at a word,
And dropped it at her feet:
Then hurried on his witless way,
Scarce knowing she had heard.

And when I came, she stood alone--
A woman, turned to stone:
And, though no word at all she said,
I knew that all was known.

Because her heart was dead,
She did not sigh nor moan.
His mother wept:
She could not weep.
Her lover slept:
She could not sleep.
Three days, three nights,
She did not stir:
Three days, three nights,
Were one to her,
Who never closed her eyes
From sunset to sunrise,
From dawn to evenfall--
Her tearless, staring eyes,
That, seeing naught, saw all.

The fourth night when I came from work,
I found her at my door.
"And will you cut a stone for him?"
She said: and spoke no more:
But followed me, as I went in,
And sank upon a chair;
And fixed her grey eyes on my face,
With still, unseeing stare.
And, as she waited patiently,
I could not bear to feel
Those still, grey eyes that followed me,
Those eyes that plucked the heart from me,
Those eyes that sucked the breath from me
And curdled the warm blood in me,
Those eyes that cut me to the bone,
And cut my marrow like cold steel.

And so I rose and sought a stone;
And cut it smooth and square:
And, as I worked, she sat and watched,
Beside me, in her chair.
Night after night, by candlelight,
I cut her lover's name:
Night after night, so still and white,
And like a ghost she came;
And sat beside me, in her chair,
And watched with eyes aflame.

She eyed each stroke,
And hardly stirred:
she never spoke
A single word:
And not a sound or murmur broke
The quiet, save the mallet stroke.

With still eyes ever on my hands,
With eyes that seemed to burn my hands,
My wincing, overwearied hands,
She watched, with bloodless lips apart,
And silent, indrawn breath:
And every stroke my chisel cut,
Death cut still deeper in her heart:
The two of us were chiselling,
Together, I and Death.

And when at length my job was done,
And I had laid the mallet by,
As if, at last, her peace were won,
She breathed his name, and, with a sigh,
Passed slowly through the open door:
And never crossed my threshold more.

Next night I laboured late, alone,
To cut her name upon the stone.

Wilfred Wilson Gibson

Buried in your heart...

2009-04-23T16:16:00.000+04:00

The murky shadows..

Stillness of the dark....

Chilly night, hooting hollows...

No sign of my lark...

I'd said "Silly pet he's been...''

Singing all day long....

One day he was no more seen...

He'd flown along....

But now I'm lonely

And he never returns....

[Because he thinks I detest him]

After all he wasn't silly...

My heart burns...

Love once expressed,

Would stay forever...

Bury it in your heart...

You could find it never.....

I miss my birdy....And this poem is on account of my indifference towards the bird when he was with me....But when he flew away...I realized how much he'd meant to me...

Tym To Rethink...

2009-02-16T12:48:00.000+04:00

Don't you think?.....it's tym....to rethink?....

While the difference between "good" and "evil" gets narrower, the disparity b/w the rich and the poor gets wider....and probably wud soon reach their extremes....

Who cares?.......

I look around and see people....evryone looking upward......noone seems satisfied wid wat they hav......

And wen they are asked bout it they do give me a whacky answer....."It's human psycology!"...

Wat do these ppl think of psycology?....

If a human is'nt able to hav any control over his/her instincts, thoughts and aspirations.....why does he/she boast of having a developed brain?????

I look around and see luxury evrywhere....

Person 1: Oh.....you kno.....I have these collection of sports carz.....I'm crazy bout 'em...

P2: I love shopping...It's in my blood.....I get watever I want....never mind the money....

P3: always count on me if u're off to a jewellery.....

P4: (staring at her full closet)....I've already worn all of 'em....wat am I gonna do?...

Spas, Parlours, Clubs, Party....

I come bak 4m an exhausting extravagance....

I look around.....and see the burning sun....

And under it the helpless men....Turning their blood to sweat jus for the meagre salary...

They plea 4 a decent accomodation and health facilities....

Longing to meet their families....

They do get wages...but wat is it compared to those who earn sitting in A/C offices and chat away wid their frnz in laptops during work.....?

It's disturbing...

I'm sorry for this world.....

Model Exams At LARGE

2009-02-10T12:55:00.001+04:00

Ahem...Ahhem....Model Xams Arriving soon.....I'm scared to my wits.....

Jus' Chilling....

2008-12-11T12:59:00.000+04:00

Hi all,

Itz tym 4 me to chill...winter vacation is about to start....but this tym its gonna be hard....lots to study.....and thers a buzzz that ther's spcl classes for us....it's gud to be with frnds anyway...but the portions we have to cover.....jus thinking makes me maaaaad!....

Eid ul Adha passed by with all itz color.....The henna party extended till 2 'O' Clock at night....The peppy talks...and the silly jokes.....it was a gud tym altogether....

I'd b damned if I dont mention the feast....itz realllllllly mouth watering....I must say....

No spcl trips were made during the lazy long holz....but it was fun when my czn joined us....he's jus the person for us.....always makes a fool of himself.....but we love him....and his silly manners...

People Hardly Notice...

2008-12-10T21:27:00.002+04:00

Curls of blue smoke,
Deep and Dense,
Rising up...up...up...
A Vampire From Death...

Closing their eyes,
The twinkling stars, fell apart...
The smiling crescent,
Turned Upside Down...

People Hardly Noticed,
For the glitz of the sky scrapers,
Have blinded their eyes....

The droning bumble bees,
Never whizzed past ears...
The band of the songsters,
Never sang their morning melody....

People Hardly Noticed,
For the nasty, rude car honks,
Have deafened their ears...

People those who cared,
For the scent of early winter blooms...
And the sweetness of the purest drop,
Couldn't but sigh, a feeble voice...

For the chaos for
CIVILIZATION....they call it so...
Have dumbed their speech....

The filthy vampire smirks...
Upon the heartless people....
In a haze, is mother nature....
In a haze, are her children...

Dated 11 November...

2008-11-18T22:56:00.000+04:00

Its Xammmzzzzzzzzz now....Books now become monsters in dreams....it's tiring......but i love physics...and that interest is not seen in any other subjects..and thats wat worrying me.....good grades in phy is no good....wat else?....nthing spcl.....with bulging red shot eyes...i stay awake....until 2 or 3 O clock in the night...keeping my chemistry text in front .....yawning....dreaming......coming bak to "redox reactions".....again dreaming.....chocolating from the fridge....hehe

Examination

2008-11-04T21:54:00.000+04:00

Eerie silence...
Restless feet tap-danced...
Fuming Impatiently,
To get rid of that feeling of Insecurity....
Drab Hours, Sleepless nights
Of arduous study...
Were'nt I sincere?
Yes, but why? ...Mind is BLANK....
Perspiration...Inspite
The air-conditioned classroom
Q.P handed out...B.P on the high...
In the name of Almighty,
Whom, on a normal day,
I seldom recall...
I measured my intellect,
Upon a set of problems...
'It was easy enough'...
With a sigh of relief...
OUT of the hall, OUT of the strain...
Neglecting that Power,
Which helped me OUT once more...

Winter's Gift

2008-10-26T19:17:00.001+04:00

The Cherry Bloom

On a gloomy winter morning,
When boughs stood mourning,
With an agonized mind,
I left my home behind...

Lanes laid in snow,
Footsteps mine - A friend in tow...
Ice-topped mountain peak,
Granting glimpses when I keek...

The snow crunched below,
A withered bloom laid low,
Giving way to red blobs of cherry...
A little finch sang in merry...

The tinge of sadness,
That weighed my heart,
Like a dew drop trickling down,
Withdrew....Soothing me...
As the winter's gift I had!

My Love

2008-10-11T14:04:00.000+04:00

Dreams spinned away,

Silvery webs around me...

Drifted, I amidst them,

When a rustle woke me up...

As the graceful 'sleep fairy',

Refused to grant a spell...

Stepped I, lightly onto the balcony...

Feeling the "magic" around me...

The breeze fetched me,

The fragrance of wild jasmine blooms....

Surprized at the supressed giggle,

I stared at the perky red rose on the sill...

She whispered "Up there! He's up there!"

My eyes searched for him,

The starry black sky...

And instantly fell in love!

There, among the cotton clouds,

Winking down at me,

Was the handsome, elegant prince,

My love, The Moon...

Through The Busy Lane...

2008-10-09T21:32:00.000+04:00

Pacing through the busy lane,
Hauled me, the sight, purely of anguish...
Muttering in her slumber, there lay,
On the squalid pavement,
A feeble lady of Ninety Nine....
Destitute, In solitude...
Her frizzled hair blown away by the zephyr,
From the scarred forehead...
I stared long upon her...
When the skinny, fragile frame of hers,
Stirred at the cyclist's bell....
Her eyes met mine, and her sunken face,
Recited, tales of her past...
Her protruding bones, narrated,
Hunger-stricken existence...
Her sombre eyes...Rendered me an insight...
Virtually a century of excruciation...
Laid, I, a shilling on her deformed metal plate...
And walked away, sinking among the busy lane...
Into a Hard-hearted busy life.....

Seashore...

2008-09-29T13:18:00.000+04:00

Leaning against the gigantic, geometric sculptures...
The fresh scent of the sea, I breathed in thankfully...
Listening to the water, the mesmerising murmur...
And the friendly call of the homeward gull...

Barefeet...No leather masking me from nature...
I strode along the shore, under the secluding sun...
Feeling the comforting warmth of gleaming, glittering sand...
Under my toes, pebbles tickling at times...

Playful waves kissed my feet, gently...
As they washed away the cipher I left...
Decoded, took them away...
To where the sea hid her pearls...

With a profusion of violets, blues, oranges and pinks...
Finished up with a golden wash...
Nature, painted out in intricate strokes...
A splendiferous sunset for me...

My Reply To A Good Friend....

2008-09-28T16:06:00.000+04:00

My friend, Kitara, sent in a poem, one fine morning....As she had said me earlier, her poems are all about 'warriors, torture, rage, extreme emotions and anger'....And when I finished reading through "Burning Road" ... (Her poem was named so)....I felt an urge to scribble down a 'counterpart' for the piece of poetry....Except for a few changes...Down here....
See how 'inspiration' works!...

Why the road so dire?
Why follow the fire?
Why vociferate endlessly?
You have unpredictable power!!!

Allow not tears to conquer you,
Allow not ur blood to dry up....
Keep it live......
Alight with that powerful fire.....

Achieve ur desire....
Leave behind the haunted roads....
And look forward ....
To the enlightened destination.....

Lend your ears to the music of life...
Tune it to fit the ring of change...
For changes always happen...
Flow with the right, as brave as ever...

Flow of Nature

2008-09-27T20:16:00.000+04:00

This one is painted on a 30"x 20" canvas...I found something similiar in a magazine cutout....And immediately took up the painting...Finished it within two weeks....There must be flaws....But I forgive myself as I've done the job on a "Huge" canvas ( At least...For me it was HUGE...)...What do you think???

I have set it up on one of our drawing room walls...And each time I pass it....I feel good....(Always Hardwork Gives Happiness.......Don't it???)

When I Am Alone...

2008-09-24T15:29:00.000+04:00

Around me teems Six Hundred crore...
Is it for the want of more?
The heart strings, deep within the core,
Quiver at the heavy dew of lonliness...
I cry...I Am All Alone....

The blue sky turns dun...
Green Leaves parched in the sun...
Draining away all the fun
Mixing up the colours into one....
The ugly grey of life...

Tears well up in my eyes...
Who listens to me, now?
The dead leaves and the snow?
Sickening silence cling around...
Only the ticking time-piece by my bed...

None I have to share my part...
Nor a friend to plan mischief...
Sinked my face, into that faraway look...
Who would answer me now?
None...I Am All Alone...

Here....Some more...

2008-09-19T17:33:00.000+04:00

A Smart Village....I Guess...

Snow had always inspired my imagination...

Take a look at my paintings...

2008-09-05T20:04:00.001+04:00

All these were painted when I was 13

This painting is based on a poem i read then...about a mother bird..who does'nt leave her children inspite the nest was under fire....

Nowadays STUDIES spare me no leisure tym...So I've currently put a pause 4 my hobby...

The idea striked me when I saw a bird watching the world from a height...

'Bird's View'....I call it....

This one was the first portrait sketch I've ever drawn....howzit?

Chocolate

2008-08-26T08:32:00.000+04:00

Holding dad's little finger,

I eyed the colourful covers.

Permission granted to choose,

There! I was DAZED!!!

The creamy light brown, the dark?

The caramel topped, the milky?

Hey, the one with wafers or the coconut sprinkle?

DOUBT!!!

The delay earned me an angry glare.

After speedy contemplation,

Settled, my hands, on the rarely chosen,

Exquisite, Swiss chocolate mousse.

Walking back home

IMPATIENCE!!!

Grabbing the cover,

I tore it open.

The warm chocolate melted, in my mouth,

Tickling the happy sensation.

Occasional Hazelnuts doubled the ecstasy.

The sweet, trickled down tastefully.

But nothing lasts forever - a truth

The empty wrapper, joined others....

Left me thinking....

"When would be the next stroll with dad?"

Did you watch the movie "Willy Wonka and the Chocolate factory"?Well...I did...3-5 times....

Chocolates were always my passion...As a child and even now...The brown colour takes me out of this world...There was a collection of chocolate wrappers with me,when I was 5 or 6...I was reluctant even to part with those colorful papers....Such was my love for chocolates....and I still have it...(but not to the wrappers, I guess)

My mom and me are the Choco-eaters, while my dad and younger sister eat only once in a month...and that too would be a small bite! (I often wonder-"How are they managing with it?") But even when we think they are weird, we consider it a Huge Luck...We can have all the chocolate for ourselves...But there'll always be a tug of war b/w me and my mom...

Both of us wait for my sis to have a bite - the rest is gonna be ours...But the problem is that we have to humour her so that she would divide the larger piece for anyone of us...Quite often mom gets the lion's share...But at times she'd share it with me....[that's because she's my DEAR mom]....otherwise she'd enjoy it herself....[and that is because she wants to taunt me]....

Another advantage my mom utilizes is the time I'm away...(at school)...She'd eat off the chocolates at her wish, but would never forget to leave me a bite...that's really sweet of her...Only a mom would do so...If I were left alone with chocolates...don't come back...ther won't be anything left...

But all that chaos until the last piece of chocolate in the refrigerator gets eaten is fun...

And it often makes me thank the world of chocolates...for the happiness it gifts me with...in each bite...(after a long fight with mom!)...

Among the Unforgettables....

2008-05-28T19:47:00.000+04:00

I have travelled to many beautiful places. Most of them in my mind are a blur, but one place I have never forgotten...and never will forget is the Zayed Grand Mosque,AbuDhabi...Built entirely of white marble, its stunning architectural beauty is beyond adequate description...The building is so beautiful that it is now considered to be one of the loveliest landmarks of the
Abu Dhabi city.

We set off at about 9 a.m. from the school...after about a 10 minutes ride,we saw the mosque appear in our view...Towering before us...the result of hardwork of 10 years...Stunningly beautiful....

The first thing that catches our eye is a blue pool at the entrance...Our guide,a beautiful,young Arabic lady, explained proudly about the ingeniously planned set-ups...For instance...the pool was serving three purposes...add beauty..(of coz)...moisturize the hot air, UAE's weather being very dry...and reflecting the lights onto the mosque so as to give it a half-moon shaped glow...
We were herded through the main archways, chiseled with passages from the Holy Qur’an and the bold scroll work of flowery pattern, give a captivating charm to its beauty... The central domed chamber and four adjoining chambers include many walls and panels of Islamic decoration....Double columns laid with semi-precious stones...modelled to look like palm trees, lined both ends of a very wide corridors around the mosque....

The Main Prayer Hall...has in its name, 3 Guiness World Records...the largest chandelier...the largest handmade carpet and the largest dome in the world....in the same intricately decorated hall....the walls which were depicted with the 99 names of Allah in gold had a floral design embossed with white gold...To be honest, my eyes were dazed as I gazed across each nook and corner...I could'nt find any possible imperfections..

Praying here seems very satisfying. A strange feeling of reverence and respect is sure to come in your hearts while in there....I'm quite sure about it...

After feasting upon the intense beauty...we proceeded to the simply laid grave of the great leader, Sheikh Zayed..the late President of UAE...After a minute of solemn prayer ...we left...waving good-bye to the four graceful, slender minarets...leaving the white 83-domed Masjid to fade away...

I must say, the trip brought me a wonderful time...

Hmm...coin your own title...

2008-05-20T16:36:00.000+04:00

Cutting into the midnight-blue sky,
Lined with a faded red glow,
He came, with radiance of a thousand rays...
Peeping from,among the craggy green hills,
At his lover,whom he'd left,
With shiny beads of pearls on her cheek...
She woke in her full bloom,amidst
The silent water,sensing his touch,
Inspite of the misty air...
The lovelorn lady lotus,
Shivered at the sun's kiss,
Danced with the light breeze...
Jealousy,Time was,in their happiness,
Dragging the Light into the sea...
The lady waits till the next dawn'
Again to be left alone,as darkness creeps in....

Raindrop!

2008-05-20T16:05:00.000+04:00

A raindrop,tiny she was,came
Settling on the rose bud nearby,
Rested after her racing game,
From the dim, darkened sky.

I wondered, listening to her heavy gasps,
"Sent down?...The reason?"
Reading my thoughts,the tiny drop,
Answer'd in her musical rhythm...

"From the blues, where the rainbow blends,
Where I slept with all my friends,
An awakening chill sent us down,
To find our destiny on our own..."

The glaring sun rose in anger,
Squeezing the soul out of her,
Alas!The dazzling drop disappeared,
Leaving me behind dazed...

A great teacher she'd been,
Taught me "Life's Brief!"
Returned to her creator,
Content to have fulfilled her destiny....